*shrug*

i'm a sweet girl. i can also be a raging bitch. however...there is something divine about me. i don't know what it is but whenever someone hurts me or causes me tears....something really bad happens to them. and i don't even do it. i dunno what it is. i don't want to know or ask. but maybe my name should've been karma or something. 

cudder ♥

good to know. its not just me. that acts like this.

dope : tennille x mikey rocks.

#deadddd.

all of the lights video premiered yesterday.

sumn wrong. i hold my head. MJ gone... our nigga dead.

yeah i'll be late for that.

flashback to childhood: weezer - el scorcho

these muhfuckas was high. as shit. i love weezer. well...the original lineup. and listen to lyrics arent those the sweetest lil lyrics?

easy A is my movie. and this is my part.

late orchestration x kanye's workout plan

the workout plan with live strings. i've been a fan of strings ever since my cousin Am was forced to play Violin when we were 8. her mom thought it was elegant. it is. :)

naked is always honest.

"you like your hair pulled don't you? can i pull it?"

"i want to taste you...what are you doin this weekend?"

"you are so fuckin sexy...i want to fuck you so bad.."

those are three different things said by three different people this week alone. like...i don't find it flattering or amusing. i find it to be appalling these sleezeballs think that they can just approach me on some bullshit or say something out of line to me. some people have told me to take it as a compliment. to be frank, sorry im just not that kinda girl. there's a difference between bitches and sisters haven't you heard the song? ugh... ;)  for me, sex is better when there is feeling behind it. passion or love... i just cant be out here with an aimless fuck...you know? when i become an aimless fuck i also become a lazy fuck because its just not my style. i'm too old for that shit. don't you ever just want more? not a relationship but something with some substance. a clear understanding that what we have is real and fuck everybody else. not just...we fuckin. whatever happened to dating? going out. having a drink. kickin it. talkin. then some sexual relations. where are these men with the sense?

I’m a hopeless romantic and I’m looking and trying to decide who the mother of my child will be. It’s not going to be based off a whim of being in love; she has to bring a certain level to the table. I want to be married, I want that super-dope counterpart, that one woman, but she has to be super-fresh, super-smart and not overwhelmed by her career. I’ll find her, maybe I’ll be 38 … maybe I’m not fully who I am yet, maybe that’s why I haven’t found her … The main quality is that you know that this person will ride or die for you. Whether she’s mad at you, whether she’s with you or nor, she still loves you, she stills bigs you up in any circle. She doesn’t talk down about you to other people. That’s the main thing that I need.”- Yeezy.

happy valentines day.

i actually have a valentine this year. sometimes you have to open your eyes. do i really like this guy? nope. i just like the fact that he likes me. i'm fucking ill and i appreciate when people get that. lmao. no but really tho...

i dedicate this to all my people have "tony's" in their lives. whether their names really are tony or perhaps tia. you could be in love by now. just move some of that nonsensical fictional love shit up out your way. people be confusing good sex and couple hours of entertainment a week for a relationship or even for affection, don't be like that. like my homie @shermradio be saying "you betta den that." sigh...i have so much clarity when i'm on my nun flow. lol. ;)

hospital flow.

puffy eyed. swollen hands. iv's. ekgs. and xrays. coughing. sneezing. body aches. fever of 102. 

pain is an understatement. i called everyone who i trusted enough to take me to the hospital this morning and you know who came through? absolutely no one. everyones phone went to vmail. i had a friend of a friend take me. and i thank God for her and i owe her big time. my feelings are tad hurt but... i mean what can you expect? everybody is rollin for delf. you never truly realize how alone and cold this world is until you actually need someone. the only person who made sure i was okay was stevie. and stevie is 500 miles away. felicia went home for the weekend but she said she'd be here tomorrow to take care of me. well at least stevie called every two hours making sure i was breathing that was more support than from anyone considering the fact i was three degrees from death today. :/

to sext or not to sext.

just know that if you send a picture over the internet via email or texting... someone is gonna see it. so make it good. trim the pubes. shine up the skin. i have had some amazing shots sent over the airways in the past but i'm not sure how i feel about it now. sure i can be guile but i still have my grace. if i send something you will definitely not see a no-no spot. one can be provocative without too much exposure. remember that..

                      

i got a style for every bump in ya face, nigga.

girls dem suga.

take the stars out sky for you... theres nothing in this world that i wouldnt do. :)

almossssssssssst. done.

i almost cancelled this bitch like nino. i love my blog and i will never neglect it again. i went through one of my many recurring brain farts and moments of being uninspired. after getting a reality check from my bestie and good talking to from my ex-boo if thats what you want to call him...i realized that i'm missed out here in these streets. if my biggest supporters tell me get to it. then get to it it is, sirs. 

its 3am and if this Jamie Foxx and Drake comes on ONE mo' time. I'm kicking the TV OFF THE WALL. goodnite.

throwback : blu cantrell x sean paul - breathe

YES. SEAN-AH PAUL WAS THAT DUDE JUNIOR YEAR OF HS. I WAS LIKE HIS NUMBER ONE FAN. I WAS LIKE "PUT SEAN ON THE TRACK HE WILL MURDAH DEM." AND THEY TOOK ONE OF MY FAVE BEATS BY DRE. SMH. I LOVED THIS SHIT.

the breakup song.

i like the (500) days of summer theme... someone rapped this to me once and it touched me. i think he was drunk at that moment tho, heh.